As we get older we get wiser and
You know how they say, “just wait, the feeling will fade,” well it hasn’t.
Pretty standard amazing day. I woke at 7am, checked all my social media sites until 8am and then finally got out of bed at 8:30. I’d slept a good 10 hours, more than I do on a regular basis. I had breakfast, went shopping and then did my workout before the Super Bowl started. I had an IPA beer and dinner around 7:30. I went upstairs at 8:30 and started my nightly routine of getting ready for bed. At 9pm as I laid in my bed, my sister texted me she needed help with a letter. I got up to get my MacBook and drafted a letter for her. At 11:30pm I put my computer away and tried to fall asleep. It’s 2:13am now and sleep has eluded me!! I have to be up at 5:30am. I am not happy 😔😔
Even by definition, this phenomenon is exacerbating! The word its self “unrequited” is enough to bring a tear to anyone’s eye who has had first hand experience. Normally I reserve this for those less fortunate than I. Yet, here I find myself in the throws of this emotion. I think I am a fairly competent capable woman of means and integrity who can contribute much to a relationship, but alas, I find myself longing for someone who doesn’t even acknowledge the fact that i’m interested in him! I’m not sure where I dropped the ball exactly, or that he’s just such a nice, polite guy that he wouldn’t acknowledge it since he’s just NOT interested!! Ugh, that hurts to even contemplate! I’d like to think that I’ve reached a certain age when I can read a guy and know what’s he’s thinking…..obviously I’m completely clueless! What makes this even more humiliating is that I’ve shared my desires for him with several of my friends!! How does a 40-something year old go back to feeling like a 12 year old with her first crush? Any thoughts or comments are always appreciated. =)
Well today didn’t go as planned. I woke up with a wicked sore throat, killer headache and cough! I managed to get some breakfast in, but then bailed on volunteering at FanFest. Bummed, but needed the rest. Around 4ish I dragged my butt out of bed and then headed down to The Great American Ballpark to meet up with my sisters. We scored a sweet parking spot and an even better table at Yard House. Alas, we did not go into the ballpark since the tickets were a little pricey and the possibility of rain loomed. The atmosphere was electric! The city of Cincinnati has been most hospitable! The home town guy (Todd Frazier) won, so the atmosphere stayed electric! Although my sisters and I were rooting for our California boys (Albert Pujols and Joc Pederson) it was exciting to see the competition! Not much else to report since I was sick=( Tomorrow will be a better day!
Here we are July 2015 and we find ourselves at the MLB (major league baseball) festivities. I used to think EVERYONE knew about annual event until I met someone who asked what I meant when I told them I was headed out-of-town to enjoy these festivities. Normally, I get annoyed and not even respond, because seriously, if you have to ask, for me, it was never worth explaining. But he wasn’t just someone I was telling, he’s someone who I find absolutely interesting and possibly attracted to. Why possibly? Well, it’s complicated, he’s not typically my type. But I digress. I find myself with my sisters in Cincinnati at this event and I’m bored in the city. I haven’t really seen a lot of the city, but what I have, I haven’t been terribly impressed. Don’t get me wrong, the people here are very friendly and even engaging. I’m just surprised at the lack of “fun” events here. I’ve been volunteering at the Allstar Game since 2008 and this one has been the most boring so far. I can’t pinpoint the exact reason, but it’s just lacking. Luckily I have two sisters who share the journey with me, so we’re taking advantage of the down time and catching up on some much needed rest! I shall endeavour to prove myself wrong tomorrow and check in!